Get out of bed. Take a shower. Brush your teeth. Shave. Speak. Eat. Talk to your family. Talk to your friends. Answer your phone. Go to class. It’s not that fucking hard. But I haven’t done any of it in 5 days. I sleep in my bed with ear plugs and shut myself out and try to leave as little a footprint on the world around me as I possibly can. It’s impossible to cease to exist without shattering everything around me. Realize that an This thing I have is crippling me once more and I didn’t see it coming. I’m falling into the same patterns I used to and thinking the same way. I need to snap the fuck out of it sooner rather than later.